Oh and P.S.

Tell me, IS SHE WORTH IT?

Is she worth this?

State the obvious, You'll never get your perfect fantasy.

You're a red neck heartbreak,
who's really bad at lying.
So by the way, your gay.



So, tonight, I found out that one of my closest friends, has flipped and flopped and ended up doing something she swore, many times may I add, she would NEVER do.

I also found out that this means next week, I am completely free. Wellllllll. Not completely ;)

Other than that little smily winky face thing I got plannnned..

I am going to disney one day with Adriennneee and Elena and maybee Julian(my cousin), and CLUB 33 woooo. So I am excited for that.


Otherwise, I am literally sitting here planning revenge!


Oh, and thanks to Joyce and Nicolette for putting my name on the card that will be attatched to the scissors you give Joseph. So nice of you!! Oh P.S., have fun!!


I'm super excited for this summer, because Nicolette and JOYCE are bothhhhhhhhhh coming out here. The dates are TOP SECRET, I can't release them to you just yet, because wowowow Joyce is a celebritay and people will stalk us all. But wwowow, partyyyy.

Anyways.




I learned tonight that the more you complain about your life, the worse it gets. So when you complain, you end up somewhere in life you don't really want to be.. but you take it because you don't know what else to do. So to people who are in those places, I got a few words from Emily the other night that helped me see a "light" at the middle of the "tunnel"(Yeah, the middle, I'm not even THERE yet.) but the words were "Things that bring you down, are meant to make you stronger, so you can build them back up." Well, amazing advice, and I am taking it. I hope that challenges in life are harder, and more difficult to get over, because then, I will become stronger.


So to that one person right now, you know who you are, you are starting to hurt yourself now by cheating all of us.

A lot of things in my life are going down hill, and whenever they take a step back UP the hill, they take 5 steps down. Things get better, then worse. People have always told me in my life, things will get worse before they get better.. not better, then worse, then better.. then worse. But I am going to just hope and pray that everything will work itself out in the end.

Right now I am really really confused about everything in life that I want, and need. I don't know what I am going to do in school right now.. I kind of want to go to Elmo(ELMODINAAAA) but at the same time, I TOTALLY DON'T.


It's kind of weird, how we all grow up with dreams, and hopes for ourselves, and as we grow up, our parents grow with us, and build on top of those dreams and hopes.. Well, if you build a tower out of building blocks, and then throw a brick on top, do you think it's going to keep standing? No, it will fall; smash to pieces even. But if you were to just throw a few rocks at it at a time.. it might withstand them. Well, a bunch of rocks are being thrown at me right now, and a giant brick is sitting on top.

It's stress, and power, and love, and complicated and confusing.. and invigorating.

I miss my best friends, and I miss them so much it's literally tearing me apart from my life.

Build that tower as high as you can, the brick will be smaller if you do.


Al

Do cookies explode in microwaves?

Well, my dad thinks so. He told me not to heat up my cookies in the microwave! But I did anyways


They didn't explode.


But so I went to stick one in my glass of milk, right? And it like SIZZLED!!!!!!!!!!!!! And burned my finger. IT HURTS SO BAD. Do cookies explode in microwaves? No. Do they explode in milk? YES.


Kay,
nicolette is so not GEEEEE


BYEE!! :)

ali

A stupid girl named Ali..

Went to feed her three dogs and ended up spilling their dog food ALL over the kitchen.

Great, ehh?

I know. Nicolette hacked my myspacee. Hahaha.


And made my song what it is. lmaooo

Anyways. I'm bored today and my myspace looks pretty dank. THAT'S RIGHT NICOLETTE I SAID DANK. Suck it up.

Anyhoww. I think that spring break, and summer is going to be pretty amazing..

So yep.

payceee.


ali

HACKED!

Hi. Aliya is a faggot<3

OH P.S.

Fan club opens in a week. I am SO not paying $40+(-5) dollars to go to concerts I can already go too.

But this summer, I want to go to the Clique Girlz and Raven concert!! hahaha! And get VIP for that.. I love Raven!

Choices

Wow. So so so much stuff has happened already this year. Starting with New Years and that weird Jonas performance. But other than Jonas stuff..

Let's see, I went to a concert, OH WAIT THAT'S JONAS. I saw Alyssa, and a few other people. Man, so much planned for this summer too.

It's almost spring break and I can't help but wonder what I am doing sitting here, not planning things for spring break. Summer is jam-packed with friends coming, and working. It's just gonna be crazy. But I am so excited because a few of my best friends are coming. But for anyone reading this you need to know that my life is pretty boring. HA.

School is rough, but not so bad. People always think that drama is going to be like all up in highschool, when the truth of the matter is, drama actually simmers down freshman year.. which for me, I was so happy to have happen. In middle school we had SO MUCH drama. And not like interesting drama either, just like the annoying "NO I LIKE HIM" drama. I think the only drama I have had personally this year, is whether or not to take the AP Euro exam.. more not.

So, I saw my counselor or whatever a few weeks ago, and we talked abotu college and stuff.. and well, I decided that I want to go to NYU. NYU has an AMAZING medical program - if that's even what I decide to do with my life. At this point, I don't even know what color shoes I am wearing tomorrow.

Making choices in life are a huge part of a persons life in general, but how to make the right one is what matters. I remember last summer(??? I don't remember I am constantly trying to forget this memory all together -- thats why.) But anyways, when I went to the UCLA Acting For the Camera camp, I was slapped silly, and reminded why I hate UCLA. Well, for one thing, the dorms sucked... But back to my point: This man, one of the teachers, no I don't remember his name, nor do I want to, but he said this one thing that will always be burned into my head(maybe it was because when he said it he threw something across the room, or maybe because it was great, either way!) it was about acting, but not really. It was about life. What he said, and I remember writing it down in the notebook(OH YEAH, he did make us take notes, great ehhh? not so much.) But he said, "It's better to make a bad choice, than to make no choice at all." And whether or not he said it, or took it from someone else(illegally may I add), it doesn't matter.

Think about it. Ponder it.

Kay, you better have thought it over, cause it's QUIZ time.

1. You are in the middle of a football game yeah? And you are the quarterback.. and you have to make the call, all on you, no one else is gonna help you. Do you forfeit, or make a choice? You have ten seconds.
1..
2..
10.

Well, if you said forfeit, you aren't just a loser, but you're also stupid. A quarterback makes decisions, right there on the spot. If you are put in a situation in your life where you have to make quick decisions, you don't just forfeit the game(in this case, life)! NO! You make a decision, even if it's not the right one.

Now kids, this doesn't mean that you drink and drive and get yourself killed. I mean, use your common sense now people ;)

Outties!!

Ali