Running Away Is Never the Answer

Life gets hard, but without love there's nothing left.


Even in life when things get really really hard to deal with, and everything is going down hill, it doesn't matter. You can't get away from your problems. Your problems follow you where ever you go. Even if your problems are in New Jersey, and you move to California, you're problems ARE STILL THERE. Even if you run and run forever, never stopping to take a breath, your problems are alway going to fallow you. Until you solve them, you can't get rid of them. And honestly, by the time you solve them, you will have new ones.. so it won't matter.

And if your problems don't follow you for some run of the mill reason, well, they'll come around. I promise. Even if you don't want to believe me, I swear, they will. You will always stumble over your problems sometime in life, so running away is never the answer.

Sometimes you feel like you need to get away some place, but there's no where to run, no where to hide. When I feel like this, it usually takes about a week.. maybe two, to go away. It's like you're stuck in a fishbowl, being watched by everyone, and just captured in there. It's scary. You don't know what to do, and it feels like the walls are closing in, and the oxygen is leaving. Like pressure is pushing down on you, and you don't even know what to do. The best thing to do is just take a deep breath, and talk to your best friends. They'll make you smile, and help you through it however they can.

I have a lot of times where I feel like things go wrng because I deserve them.. like I did something bad in my life, so something bad has to happen in return to even the karma out. Well, suddenly in the past week, I have felt like it has nothing to do with my life. Things happen for a reason, and maybe when I get older I'll unnderstand it.

Right now I don't understand half the things going on in my life. It's falling apart faster than flakey corn bread. Things are going down hill, but I'm just waiting for the strength and motivation to pull everything back together again. And I'm waiting for God to let me do that. I know I can do it, I just need a little push in the right direction, and a little support along the way. Life is a really long, hard journey, and once you get on the right track, not only is there no turning back, but it's just laid out for you. It's all right there, in front of you all you have to do is dig down deep and find the strength to walk it.

So I'm going to try, but to get there I'm going to need my best friends right next to me. Because otherwise.. I don't think I'll get there at all.